March 29th was probably the most difficult for Brian and I when dealing with the overwhelming feeling of having no control in Deacon's future. It was our rock bottom.
It is in that time when you get to a place that you throw your hands in the air and give up doing things on your own. We finally realized that we could do all we could as Deacon's parents, but the most important thing was to give our struggles and desperation to God.
That day this verse became my mantra:
"Have faith in God. Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."
Our pastor summarized with: Don't tell God about the mountains in your life, tell those mountains about God.
Around this time my Aunt Bonnie mailed us this book, after the family visited her church:
They wrote about their healthy daughter becoming ill and needing to have her heart removed. She was hooked up to a machine that was outside of her body and worked as a temporary heart while they waited in an out of state hospital for months for a transplant. The family was split apart, had days with poor prognosis, but continued to stay strong in their faith.
I started reading this book on April 4th, after my students finished their state testing. On April 4th Deacon stopped having seizures and we haven't seen one since. It has been 4 months!
Coincidence?? Deacon had been on the same prescription for a couple of months and had no changes in it. This was also less than a week since our "rock bottom." Believe what you will, I have no doubt this was God.
Need more proof of the miracles we have experienced:
February 17th - We were told Deacon had Infantile Spasms and a 90% chance of being mentally retarded, and high mortality rate.
April 4th - Seizures stopped!
June 24th - Vision Specialist can hardly believe Deacon is the same kid! Told us all fixing, following, and visual attention had significantly improved!
Diagnosis: Developmental Delays
February 1st - Deacon qualifies for ECI services for developmental delay. At about 12 months of age, he was at the development of about a 6 month old and had regressed in some areas and platued in others. He could not feed himself, had no interaction with toys or people, language had completely disappeared.
July 20th - Deacon's re-evaluation. In six months, Deacon has had 6 months of progress! He is now developmentally at at about 12 months is drinking from a sippy cup and feeding himself, plays with toys and people, and is making sounds again!
June 14th - Neurologist diagnosed Deacon with Autism.
So let me remind you of God's promise:
"God will bless you, if you don't give up when your faith is being tested. He will reward you with a glorious life, just as he rewards everyone who loves him."